a story is ending

2005-06-20T12:30:00.000+08:00

hey back i am.... haha.... wassup ppl.... hey....u noe wat.... our story tat we hv been writing for 3months has finally finish..... the last fullstop is at da last paragraph.... the words "the end" has alredi been written..... now..... gonna write another story, alone...... yupz.....new life.... back to my basics now..... can go back to my usual ways...... can go back to my bad habits..... n if yall still don get wat i m talking abt, hey i m single, again..... yupz.... we broke up last nite......... tatz all for now.........peace out...!!

2005-06-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

wassup ppl.....!! MUAHAHAHAHA..!!! i m finally back.... hahaha..... me hv been sOo lazy to update..... anyway.... i m gonna write a bloody long post todae.... haha..... tis past two weeks i hv been to malaysia twice... one is by skool...."edutour", tatz wat dey call it.... the other one is a family vacation.... aniwae letz start with da edutour...........
da trip was to KL but hotel in Shah Alam..... aniwae 1st dae went to skool super early... onli to find out i was one of da last ppl to reach skool.... haha..... took a coach to malaysia... slpt for more than 2hrs onli.... haha.... on da 1st dae we went on a forest trail... which was sOo exciting.... but kena attacked by dozens of mosquitoes.... surprisingly, no mosquito bites appeared on my skin.... i m immune to them.... haha...... aniwae.....we didnt do much on da 1st dae coz it was quite late..... checked in at abt 8pm.... den got debrief by tty.... oh... my roommate was leonard koh..... thx god i had him as a roommate.... haha...... den ordered room service.... ordered ice-cream.... but it came at abt 1.45am.... sOo late sia.... thx god got basketball match on tv..... 2nd dae..... woke up early.... got morning call frm jeremy...... haha.... ate breakfast... bla bla bla..... went to padi field.... bla bla bla..... den after lunch, went to palm oil field..... bla bla bla... haha....den after dinner went on a boat trip..... saw fireflies.... it was magnificent.... sOo cool sia...... den went back hotel..... ordered more room service.... invited jeremy, benjamin n juan to my mini-party in my room..... watched hot chick..... haha..... last dae..... after breakfast, checked out n den went to King's Palace,Independence Square n den MID VALLEY MEGA MALL..... tat mall is huge..... longer than a football field..... went shopping wif tevian...all his frenz abandon him... he is such a nice guy.... aniwae, bought presents for my family n my dear...... at 3pm, left da mall..... went back to singapore..... we reached dere at abt 8plus...... den went home cheryl phua..... shared a taxi.... both of us talked abt alot of stuff during da trip, especially super important stuff.....haha..........
went to LANGKAWI wif my family last week..... sOo fun sia...... took plane dere.... we reached our hotel at abt 7plus....... den jus checked in n hv dinner.....2nd dae..... ate buffet breakfast..... den went to tour..... went to all sorts of nice places..... visited alot of historical places....... den shop n shop.... haha.....3rd dae.... went to another tour to da other places we hvnt been.... da guide tat dae was better than da previous dae.... aniwae went to all kinds of places.... da most interesting place we went was da mountain..... we took a cable car up a mountain.... n it was sOo scary.... sOo high sia.... aniwae..... upon reaching da highest point of da mountain, we were greeted by cool clouds...... shiok sia.....totally fresh air sia...... went up to da observation point..... sOo cooling sia..... can see da vast ocean.....my cap almost fall off.....haha..... spent abt more than 20min up dere..... don feel lyk goin down.... den go back down to ground level.... haha.... went back to hotel..... bla bla bla....last dae..... early in da moning went to da beach.... build sandcastles..... haha..... sOo fun.... den at abt 1.30pm, we checked out n went back to da airport..... went back to homeland n i felt satisfied wif my holidayz...... haha......
tatz my holidayz.... shiok sia.... haha..... but when i came back frm langkawi,upon stepping out of da plane, my troubles came back to mE..... especially tat feeling..... tmr got rehersal for cultural nite.... gonna talk to john abt my problems, plus maybe help him wif his matter.... aniwae..... abt tis matter.... i will talk abt sum other tym.... i hv run out of tym... i gtg..... peace out.....!!!!!

2005-05-30T18:54:00.000+08:00

wassup ppl.... i m back.... back frm da dead.... hahaz.... now can update liaoz..... last tym i m jus pure lazy... now got mood to update....hahaz....
a lot of tings r in my mind now.... i feel a disturbance in da force.... hahaz.... watched tOo mush star wars liaoz.... btw, star wars episode 3 was da best man.... quite sad in da ending... speaking of ending..... ahem.... a story needs to hv these 3parts, introduction, body n ending.... u cant hv a story if u don hv all these 3parts..... anyway.... my point is, i hv experience da intro.... da body of da story has been really great..... enjoyed it.... but now.... da story is nearing da ending.... i can keep da story going on onli if tings change....for the better.....haiz.... i wont say watz da subject is abt, but if yall can catch wat i m talking abt, den yall r smart-asses..... hahaz.....anyway.... i want da story to go on n on..... i want it to last until eternity......but no one can hold on tat long..... i m now searching for a new paragraph in da body of my story but i also hv an ending in mind.... hope i can start da new paragraph 1st be4 da ending comes.....................
mE gtg ryte now.......... hope my story will turn out well.... don want anybody hurt..... haiz.... i m in a mess ryte now..........................................................

2005-04-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

i m back.... hahaz.... listening to gorillaz's new single, feel good inc over n over again.... coz itz sOo catchy.... hahaz.... anyway when was da last time i blog in... hmmm.... forget ledi.... hahaz.... to tell yall da truth, i got nth much to say.... coz nth much happen wat... i onli blog in sOo tat ppl wont complain i nvr update.... hahaz.....
tatz all folks.... lolz.... short ryte... nvr tmr will bE proper.... now quite bz la..... hehez....
*--to my dear--*
i luv u sOo much...
i wish i could be beside u 24/7...
i treasure the time i had with u...
i miz u more than anything else...
i hope u feel the same way abt me...
i LoVe YoU...
MuackZ...
*--to be continued, coz i will luv u 1314--*

2005-04-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

wassup ppl.... i m back to blogging, for now... hahaz..... i really tired lei.... yesterday was da most tiring day sia.... first it was cross-country, den sec 1 prefect recruitment camp...... hahaz..... den today after camp got cca den soccer practice.... wah..!! super tireded lei.... both legs cramp lyk hell.....
ahem..... lets get to da first topic... cross-country..... muahahahahaz..... although i deproved, i still got trophy.... i got 8th position..... wooohooo..... tats gud coz i m up against a lot of fast runners frm sec 4 n 5...... hahaz...... n i beat john again..... he got 20 smth..... he say he got gastric..... hmmm..... hahaz...... den after cross-country, accompanied DeaR to j8, wif her gang....hahaz.... den went home n prepared to go to da camp......
when i reached da camp, i was lyk tired ledi.... legs hurt..... but anyway, i got to be in-charge of a boring group..... dey don wanna talk or contribute lorz..... onli mE, tevian n mao-mao..... den got melvin inside da group.... wah he really irritating..... feel lyk grabbing him n shouting in his face..... anyway during dinner tym, DeaR went to skool, accompany mE to dinner n den stayed in skool to help out, until 11plus.... den sent her home..... den i packed my stuff n shifted to da skool's basketball court.... mE, don,ken,cheryl,terence,varian,hsih jiang,woam shin n a guy who i forget da name, all of us went dere to slp dere..... hahaz...... n man, it was shiok man.... hahaz..... but in the end, we nvr slp..... i had less than 1hr of slp..... hahaz.... den dere was a cat in da basketball court..... mE n varian played wif it...... hahaz.... da cat sOo adorable..... n da cat stayed wif us till da sun rise.... cool sia...... den woke up frm my super short slp, washed up n den do morning pt..... after exercise, makan breakfast..... bla bla bla..... den at 10am, went for cca...... bla bla bla..... sent DeaR home as she had chemistry lesson..... den went to makan wif j'mo n princess shima.....lolz..... went home n changed into soccer attire..... nvr even get to rest.... den went to soccer practice.... played really well.... den go home bla bla bla n now i m here updating my blog..... hahaz....
tis paragraph is going out to my DeaR... wah..! how i wish i could bE wif u 24/7..... whenever i see u go into da lift n go up, i start missing u alredi...... i luv u sOoo much DeaR.....read ur blog n irene asked u abt da "mtm" thingy ryte.... hahaz..... u really meant wat u said in ur blog meh...? hahaz...... oh i would do aniting to be beside u ryte now n hold u...... i miz u DeaR.... *muackZ*

2005-04-17T13:56:00.000+08:00

LOLZ... i must start off wif a laugh... why... coz ppl hv been pleading mE to update my blog.... hahaz.... okok.... here i m.... updating.... hahaz.... anyway yall lyk my new skin.... hahaz.... my favourite movie, Constantine.... heEx....
okok.... now let me see... wat has happen tis few dayz....well yesterday was love our community day.... it sux to da core..... hahaz..... boring sia.... prefer last yr..... u noe why... coz tis yr got zhao huang in my class.... i will touch upon tis ltr.... anyway we collected sOo little newspapers n sold sOo little goodies.... haiz.... den lost 3 packets... actually we all "stole" sum..... muahahahahaz.... but now use class fund to pay for da 3 packets.... hahaz..... den after da whole event, met up wif cLar n gang..... den we went hougang mall to makan..... hahaz.... dere was 8 of us n we pair up.... shermeen n lina, mE n cLar, irene n suthanee n john n cheryl..... hahaz..... johnny n cheryl were lyk together all da way sia.... but hey, i m not pressuming aniting.... hehez.... anyway, we ate at da foodcourt n i didnt finish my food..... sOo spicy sia..... after tat, all of us slack at hougang mall..... sianz sia.... saw my old primary skool's choir performing dere.... den i sent DeaR home n den went to soccer practice.... wah soccer practice was tiring sia.... kena scolding by manager.... haiz.... but nvm la..... played in da rain but bag got wet n dirty... sOo mon gonna bring another bag.... hahaz..... anyway, after practice, went home n den got stomachache..... den mE slp very early..... hahaz.....
to my dear.... oh how much i miz u when i don get to bE beside u..... i cant live without u.... i want u to noe how much i luv u..... i wanna bE beside u now..... well hope u will get better frm ur sore throat..... tats all..... LuV u sOoo much..... Peace OuT.....

2005-04-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

wassup world.... mR.PaiN is back.... finally mE updating my blog.... coz kena force by my dear.... hahaz... juz kidding.... hahaz.... anyway where was i.... hmmm.... oh ya..... my life has been really great..... enjoying it ryte now...... wat is making mE sOo happy.... my dear..... she has changed..... she has changed to THE BETTER.... hahaz.... actually not much change la frm last tym, but tis tym round she really cares for mE alot...... every minute i m not wif hEr, i will bE mizing hEr ledi..... every minute i spent wif hEr, i will treasure da tym being wif hEr...... anyway today mE sent her home, but instead we stayed at her void deck, talk n talk..... we sat near da lift at first..... den got some children playing catching.... i some sort disturb dem.... hahaz.... sOo adorable...... hahaz.... den da children had their last laugh...... dey keep telling us to kiss..... hahaz..... den dey sang old wedding songs, n one auntie behind us was lyk "tat song is sOo old... hahaz" den we shifted to da study corner..... den i talked to hEr abt my family problemz..... she is da only one i can talk tOo..... yupz..... den all da whole time we were holding hands..... hahaz.... duh..!! hahaz..... anyway den got tis malay auntie who can speak eng, malay n HOKKIEN.... hahaz.... both of us, actually mE onli la, were lyk shocked.... hahaz..... den when i see da auntie, she reminds mE of my grandma..... oh how i miz hEr..... she is still alive, for ur info, but i hv a fear of hEr leaving mE..... she is really da best...... really nice n kind..... sobz..... anyway, den at 6.15pm, we finally decided to go our seperate ways..... we spent abt 1hr 30min sitting at da void deck..... hahaz..... cool ryte..... but i really enjoyed it...... enjoyed being wif hEr.... enjoy holding hands wif hEr.... enjoy her resting her head on my shoulders.... enjoy talking n sharing my problems wif hEr..... overall i m happy n grateful to hv hEr..... i cant lose hEr..... wat m i suppose to do without hEr...... i need hEr..... alredi mizing hEr ryte now..... well tmr is a brand new day, but da same old mE...... hahaz..... doesnt make sense..... lolz.....
haiz.... homework still hvnt do sia.... die liaoz..... eng essay hvnt do... n it was suppose to bE a holiday work..... lolz..... anyway tats all folks, i tink...... OMG...!!! totally forgot.... muahahahahaz.... time to make sum ppl envy mE, especially those hu had to usher on last sat..... I WENT TO AVRIL LAVINGE'S BONEZ TOUR....!!!! lolz.... she was rocking man...... she is better live than on teewee.... yupz..... now jasmine is lyk hating mE sOo badly coz she cant go..... muahahahahaz..... lolz..... kkz peepz.... gtg now.....
LuV u DeaR.... miZ u sOoo much.... cya tmr..... LuV ya aLwayZ.... *muackz*

2005-03-27T20:53:00.000+08:00

yoyo... wassup.... back to blogging... my dear keep telling mE to update my blog.... n since she updated her blog, den i also update la..... hahaz.... got a lot of stuff happen.... lets rewind back to da 70s, oops tOo far, i mean to last thursday..... hahaz....
haiz..... tat day sec 3B were going to IMH.... hahaz.... suitable place for mE..... hahaz..... anyway, it was a disaster... OMG...! we were suppose to prepare a performance for dem, bt onli came out wif two, soft, songs...... walau wei.... told my classmates to talk to da ppl dere, dey jus slack arnd.... haiz.... in the end, we finish an hour earlier than our usual tym we were suppose to stay dere..... haiz..... stupid class..... haiz.... anyway after tat, sum of da boyz, including mE coz i hv da soccer ball, played soccer near shan's house..... hahaz.... played lyk hell.... da best less-than-five-ppl-per-team soccer game i played.... lolz.... my team consist of two sec 1 guyz, shan's brother n his fren.... n boy we enjoyed da game.... we thrashed every single team.... we won six games in a row..... hahaz.....anyway after tat took cab wif zhao huang n qayyum coz we all live in sengkang..... den reach abt 7plus..... den bla bla bla.....
now fri nth much happen..... coz holiday wat... n i had to tc of my bro coz parents go malaysia for leisure..... n u noe wat.... dey came home, got a gameboy advance game for my bro, n practically got nth for mE..... a shirt will do but nth.... mayb i ask to much.... hahaz..... den sat, speech day rehersal..... went well..... did two runs of da prize taking..... but overall it went well..... den cLar3 had to go for work, sOo she left early frm band.... i waited for hEr n walked wif hEr to da mrt..... talk abt stuff again..... i really enjoy da tym being wif hEr.... anyawy she took hEr train first den mE, coz we were goin diff directions...... den go home, slack..... today, went for religious class.... enjoyed it.... why... coz i sat down beside shan..... we talked crap n drew nice pic in our txtbks.... lolz..... den cher ask for letter frm parent why i nvr attend religious class last term for two weeks..... die liaoz..... i skip da class sia..... hahaz.... tats mE..... den afternoon still slack, although can do hw, but i heck care lah...... den here i m, updating my blog..... tmr got full dress rehersal.... must wear formal.... n also bring baju kurung..... haiz.... gonna bE hot tmr.... hahaz.....
wow.... talk sOo much today..... hahaz..... hope everyday had enjoy their long weekend.... i noe i did, i tink..... hahaz..... n tO my deaR, plz go take sum rest.... tmr will bE a long day.... don wanna c u lyk a panda tmr..... hahaz... jkjk.... anyway i will alwayZ LuV u, no matter wats da obstacle ahead of us, although sOo far dere is none...... hahaz.... tats all folks..... peace out....!

2005-03-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

wassup PeePz... long tym nvr blog sia.... hahaz... lazy wat.... hahaz..... SoOo..... todae was half fun, half disaster..... i enjoyed my dae todae coz played soccer lyk mad.... hahaz... a disaster coz da imh trip was terrible.... we didnt prepare well sia..... den lyk we jus did nth in front of da ppl..... haiz.... class no hope..... dey will look down on us sia..... haiz....
anyway for ur info, all chairmans need not hv to come to skool for da workshop on sat as it is cancel coz of da rehersal.... must call every chaiman sia.... thank god i hv their numbers..... hahaz.....
sOo far, mE n cLar3 r going well..... da relationship is strong, n tats gud of coz..... hey i confess to hEr one of my secrets.... wah she was lyk shocked..... hahaz..... wats da secret.... it has smth to do wif one of hEr hatred..... but i don do it ledi.... quit ledi..... yupz...... anyway mE wanna play game liao.... installed a new game..... sOo update 2molo la..... tats all.... peace out.... Luv mY cLar3.....

2005-03-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

haiz... walau wei.... mOi msn messenger cant sign in.... haiz.... even mOi windows messenger.... it says tat i m not connected to NET. service thingy.... halo...!!! mOi freaking modem is online lei... haiz.... den i dunno how to work e-messenger.... tried downloading yahoo messenger but cannot.... i gif up liaoz.... resort to sms onli.... haiz... lyk tat i can chat wif cLar3 online.... onli sms.... haiz.....
today sOo boring sia.... nth to do.... haiz.... got a call frm li min, who i met at da pLmgs camp, inviting yuying sec to attend their june camp.... she asked for yuying sec's address.... hahaz.... gaf ledi.... waiting for da invitation... hahaz.... i sOo sian ryte now.... haiz..... todae cLar3 went to do her passport..... hahaz.... she told mE in her first sms tat dere were 100 ppl be4 her.... sOo she must really wait.... lolz..... den after tat she went to bedok to conductor's house, for sum stuff la..... now waiting for her sms..... her fone batt low... hahaz.... sadded sia....
haiz... tomolo dad renting a car, den gonna spent family outing.... haiz.... i hate family outings..... i prefer to go out alone or wif frenz..... haiz.... tomolo will bE very packed.... got cca n council meeting in da morning..... den practice kompang wif da guyz..... den go home.... den go out again wif family.... walau wei.... i wanna stay home..... haiz.... hate it sia.... den sunday also same.... go family outing.... hate spending tym wif family...... sianz sia......
well tats mE..... saddistic, hatred, lyk-to-be-alone kid..... hahaz..... anyway tats all.... cant wait for da holidayz to bE over, while sum might want it to be longer.... hahaz..... hope to see hEr soon.... PeacE oUt PpL.... LuV cLar3 alwayz.....

2005-03-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

yoyo... wassup ppl.... hey did i say tat friday's workshop is cancel due to mr neo hu cant make it.... wat a relieve..... lolz..... anyway i still hvnt do mOi hw.... haiz.... half a week of skool holidae is gone..... die liaoz..... hahaz... tis one week holiday seems lyk a month long...... i cant wait for skool to reopen.... can see cLar3..... maybe tis sat can see her..... sOo sian now.... n now tis computer table is sOo cramp.... why... coz mOi father bought a new printer, which has a scanner, fax n of coz, printer..... now it is taking half of da table.... hahaz.... cant see da bottom right side of da screen..... its ok though.... hahaz.....
got nth much to write.... today is another boring day of holiday.... haiz.... sian.... but at least i get to chat wif cLar3, n tat makes mE happy..... anyway tats all..... tis is teDdy signing off.... LuV u DeAr..... cya ya soon.....

2005-03-15T16:00:00.000+08:00

WooHoo...!!! why m i sOo happy.... coz she accepted me.... yupz.... u heard it.... mE n SJ r back together..... i m floating in da clouds now..... hahaz.... i will treasure u alwayz..... i luv u SJ.... lets last 1314..... hmmmm.... really happy sia....
hahaz.... okok.... todae went to practice.... played da kompang lyk hell again.... found out i can play better wif mOi left hand den mOi right hand, although i m a right-handed.... hahaz..... cool ryte.... hahaz.... den i saw SJ.... todae she going to henderson sec for band exchange..... wish her gud luck performing dere..... hahaz..... anyway we practice until we almost get it right.... but in the end, we still need improvements..... haiz..... n da speech day rehersal is onli next week..... sO must really practice more n concentrate...... wah i say lyk we preparing for a major event, eg syf.... hahaz...... i still hvnt prepare anyting for da workshop sia.... how sia.... is mr.Neo gonna do da workshop n let mE do sum part of it or i do da whole thing..... shit la..... tomolo must do da powerpoint ledi.... no more playing games ledi..... stress again frm chairman stuff..... class stuff still hvnt settle..... haiz.... die liaoz......
wah mood swing.... frm really happy to really down.... coz of da chairman shit la..... haiz...... how to cope.... actually i can cope, but i m jus lazy n not be able to handle it........ anyway i gtg..... i Luv SJ wif all my heart..... *muackz* tis is mR.PaiN signing off..... PeacE OuT......

2005-03-14T20:30:00.000+08:00

yoyo.... wassup.... todae went for poa class..... sHe came late for da class.... still can smile.... hahaz..... most of da tym, during class, i kept staring at her..... sumtyms we made eye contact n jus smile..... hahaz...... den after da class i gave hEr a test tube wif a note inside..... yo if i wanna gif a note, i must gif it wif style..... hahaz..... hope she had read it (duh!) but she hasn't reply mE yet.... hmmm...... msg her ltr...... anyway after class got cca practice...... played da kompang(which is a tradisional malay drum, use one hand to hold n another to beat, common at weddings).... anyway played da kompang until hand super red.... practice lyk mad, coz we playing for speech day..... wah i must wear formal n wear baju kurung on top of it.... will bE bloody hot..... hahaz.... anyway practice until abt 3 plus den hang in skool wif jas n zhao huang until abt 5 plus.... den went home..... now i m here updating mOi blog...... i got nth much to write tis few dayz..... nth to write mah..... wah i really scared tis friday.... hvnt prepare da workshop..... die liao...... see yall in heaven (or hell..!! MUAHAHAHAHAZ!!!) tats all..... peace out..... luv u cLar3....

2005-03-13T10:09:00.000+08:00

i SoO happy.... hahaz.... sOo excited.... found out great news.... hahaz.... she told mE she still lyks mE n is waiting for mOi ques.... u noe da ques tat will make two into one..... anyway i really happy...... hahaz..... i gone crazy ledi..... i luv u SJ..... u r mOi onli one in mOi heart......
phew.... hahaz.... anyway yesterday watched a movie, Hitch.... i watched wif wai mun, duan jin, delong n 3 plmgs gals..... hahaz..... da show was bloody funi.... i learnt a few rules abt luv frm da show liao..... sOo i was studying n enjoying da movie at da same time..... lol......
hey..... i feel lyk i got nth much to write..... don feel lyk writing.... coz i jus tOo excited.... muahahahaz...... i gonna ask her tis week..... i got support frm newman ledi..... sOo others support mE kkz.... hahaz..... talking crap ryte now..... anyway i wanna play game ledi.... sOo to SJ, enjoy ur camp n i will alwayz be by ur side if u r in need of help.... i luv u..... peace out......

2005-03-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

wassup.... finally mr.neo has taken sum pressure off me.... phew.... but now muz organise a workshop.... walau wei.... alredi i veri hard to organise meeting, u want mE organise a workshop.... I DON EVEN NOE HOW TO ORGANISE A WORKSHOP.....!!! hahaz.....
hey hey.... finally i m getting cca points.... i joining "dikir barat", which is a tradisional malay custom..... almost lyk sing song.... hahaz.... i join becoz mdm sharifah told mE too n becoz she need ppl for da upcoming competition, which is in may.... training start in march holidays..... haiz.... it looks lyk i wont hv a single day of holiday to enjoy.....
wah.... today SJ quit da board... coz mr neo keep tekan her coz of her hair..... haiz..... why must she quit da board.... gonna miz her.... cannot see her during attire checks anymore..... why.... OH WHY....!!!! but i jus found out.... mr neo wont let her quit..... hmmm.... but he is thinking whether to release her..... plz don...... hahaz...... it will be a blow to da board, but actually more to mE, if she quits da board..... hehez...... she cried in skoll todae coz of da tie...... haiz.... cheer up la.... i noe she cheer up ledi..... coz i now chatting wif hEr..... hahaz....
sumtyms i also feel lyk quitting da board.... but tat is da last decision man..... i feel lyk a lot of pressure now..... i still hvnt settle class stuff...... wah i really admire 3E..... da chairman, gilbert, n da exco r communicating sOo well tat i m jeolous of dem..... hahaz.... dey settle tings fast..... mOi class..... wah i don even wanna talk abt it...... lolz......

everytime i look at you

i feel weak all over

i just felt like hugging you

but we are not together yet

sometimes i catch you staring at mE

or maybe someone else

or maybe you were just staring into space

but when i see you staring in my direction

i feel happy and say to myself

"hey syamim"

"she is staring at mE"

"what should i do"

i just give her a smile or a wave

haha

and you know what

to tell you the truth

i dont dare to talk to you face to face

i feel shy

i never ever feel shy when i am talking to girls

especially those whom i like

but for you

there is something special about you

that what makes you special and different from the rest

i hope we could be together again

and experience what we did last time

i luv u

i want to be with you

please be mine

you are my only one

in my heart....

2005-03-07T20:51:00.000+08:00

wow....!! today quarrelled wif mOi gud fren, CHAN HONG GUANG..... wah he started it.... den i do wat i m born to do, fight back..... hahaz.... sOo childish.... hahaz.... he threw a brick at mE..... i angry liao..... i pushed him twice n he nvr fight back.... hahaz..... noe he keep saying i better watch out... watch out for wat, da sky..?!? lolz........
*ahem* now for sum serious business..... hahaz.... actually no serious stuff la..... hehez..... mE read hEr blog n still wondering if tat person is mE..... hmmm..... must bE mE..... hehez..... self-proclaim kid...... but hu else can it bE..... i noe she got 2 ex.... i tink.... one is sec one her first stead.... den 2nd one is mE..... but dunno she got other ex.... hmmm.... don tink sOo..... sOo she must bE referring to mE..... or maybe tat a-zai guy..... but she nvr stead wif tat guy be4, i tink..... sOo da phrase "so we can bE together again" can onli refer to her ex.... n since her first ex graduate ledi, den it shld bE mE...!!! lolz..... i don wanna talk sOo much.... wait i wrong how.... sOo paiseh..... hehez.... yo its onli 28 dayz till syf.... when its finish, i will gif hEr sum space first.... coz u noe, ppl get stress out after major competitions..... den maybe after tat, i pop da magical ques.... lolz..... hey if it turn out well, den THANK GOD i did not look for other gals..... coz its onli 1 month till april.... sOo i might as well wait for hEr...... don waste mOi time looking for other gals...... sHe iS mOi onli one....... no one can replace hEr.... not even da most perfect, chiobu can replace hEr..... coz under luv section in mOi heart, it is reserve for n onli for hEr......... tats how i feel abt her..... i m deeply in luv wif her...... wish i can bE wif hEr again.... i wanna ask hEr now..... but i might as well wait till april sOo i can let her concentrate on syf......... LuRve is around mE..... lolz........ PEACE OUT...!!! LuV u SJ.....

2005-03-06T13:08:00.000+08:00

yoyo.... mE jus had a one day camp at paya lebar methodist school..... it rox man..... hey i m not talking abt da gals dere tat rox, i m talking abt da camp...... it was da best camp ever, although it was onli one day..... dere was campfire too u noe..... u don get tat sOo often on one day camps..... hahaz..... i met a lot of new frenz..... lets go back to da past n i will tell u abt da camp.... btw da theme for da camp was "Past".... hehez.....
at abt 10.05am, i left mOi poa class early, den met up wif all da ppl tat r going to da camp at da canteen.... together as a group, we went to plmgs..... we were first one to reach dere..... hahaz.... den played basketball...... 20 min ltr, we were back in their hall n da camp was officially started..... den we were splitted into groups, wif other skool..... sOo sad.... kena seperated frm da yuying gang...... hahaz.... but i enjoyed mOi group..... mOi new group was group 2 n called PEACE..... hehez..... got onli two boyz in da group..... da other guy's name was joseph..... he rocked man..... he is a national golf player u noe.... anyway we were best buds da minute we communicate..... lolz..... den after introducing ourselves, dere was ice-breakers first.... we played a lot of games, including dog n bone..... mOi group against group 3, which had jun jian inside...... den we were challenging each other.... i injured mOi left leg while trying to tap junjian..... but i got mOi revenge on him.... muahahaha...... after ice-breakers was dress up game.... i was picked to dress up..... i got da clothes frm jospeh.... i found out he is a punk...... hahaz..... den i had to catwalk wif another one of mOi group members, serena..... hahaz..... we look lyk an odd couple..... after tat was amazing race.... it was sOo fun... i got wet da most..... hahaz..... sOo shiok.....da skool is really damn bloody big...... but da buildings sOo short.... hahaz..... but da view was beautiful..... anyway at abt 5.30pm, after we had changed into our camp shirt, which looked nice, we had dinner...... da food was delicious...... our $4 was worth it...... hahaz...... den yuying gang got back together as a group and we practiced our skit...... hahaz..... we don need practice..... hahaz...... den it was campfire..... so nice n warm...... sOo romantic...... we did mass dance which was sOo fun...... den it was our turn to do our act.... although we had onli one practice, we did it sOo well....... our skit was abt drugs n da dangers...... wat does da theme "past" got to do wif it..... well our main character, newman, turn over a new leaf after near death frm drugs...... sOo da moral is...... i will say it at da end coz it got smth to do wif other stuff...... after da whole event, i took group photos wif mOi group 2 n exchanged fone numbers...... den went home wif da yuying gang.... we all makan first den went home.... mE, wai mun n junjian took 55 home..... den mE n wai mun dropped first...... we walked together to da traffic light n den went off in different directions...... went home, shower den hit da pillow..... wah mE slpt lyk a baby..... shiok man....... hehez...... thx plmgs n acs(B) for a wonderful camp..... n to mOi camp buddies, i will miz u guyz.....
long ryte..... muahahahaz...... anyway yesterday during da camp, i told hEr tat she is da onli one in mOi heart ryte now n although dere were a lot of chiobu at plmgs, no one can replace hEr...... i read her blog jus now n tis is wat it said..... "anyway..i aint gonNa say tT sentence fer sure..heeX..i noe im bad..bt i will wait fer him to sae tT precious statment..b4 we can b together aGain lo.." tat was yesterday's.... i wonder..... izzit towards mE or sumone else...... i don noe...... den today she blog in again.... "someBodi told mi..he ish still e same oLd him..caN i reaLi believe waTt he says? i doubt..haiZ..i doNn wanNa felt cheaTed aGain...haiZ...can i believe him?" now izzit implying towards mE again..... hmmmm...... i wonder...... hahaz...... if da first one is towards mE, i will bE happy..... if its not den i will feel really depress..... haiz..... but if its towards mE,den i m also confuse..... whether to ask hEr now or after syf..... but i feel i shld ask her after syf..... i don wanna stress her now...... i wan hEr to concentrate on important stuff first..... haiz...... if da second one is implying to mE, den let mE tell hEr smth...... it is also da moral of da story for da skit...... it is "The Past Does Not Determine The Future, You Can Change It" n i believe i hv done tat.... i tink i hv change mOi past n make it better...... i wanna bE wif hEr.... i still luv hEr..... plz hv trust n faith in mE...... dere is no one else in mOi, OnLi yOu......................

2005-03-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

yoyo... mE ok ledi... smiling now.... nonono... nth gud happen to mE.... mE jus wanna smile tats all.... hehez.... wah today i found out another new couple..... hahaz.... but i promise i wont tell anybody.... sOo too bad guys, no clues for ya.....hehez.... anyway after skool today, crimsom maniacs played hard man.... dey played at talent corner.... sOo fun sia.... hahaz.... bla bla bla..... den at 3.30 got dialogue session wif principal..... all da councillors....... actually she talked more than us.... it suppose to be us talking more..... hahaz..... but it went while..... i asked her a ques abt STI session wif da teachers..... she agree wif mE tat we students don talk face to face, one to one quite often.... yupz..... den, after da thingy, mE, mao-mao, jasz, ivy n "hotbabe" went back together.... den dey all go mac to eat while mE n hotbabe shima went home.... talk abt a lot of stuff..... den she reminded mE smth tat i jus realise..... (continue nxt paragraph...)
ok.... she made mE realise tat i still miz hEr(not shima ah)..... she will alwayz be in mOi mind..... whenever i see her, tis tym not onli memories come back, but more..... i wanna wait for hEr, but can i hold on tat long..... can i wait till syf finish..... can i....... will i still luv her during da period frm now till april...... i wonder..... i wanna bE wif her...... she is da missing jigsaw piece for mOi puzzle.... she is mOi sound to mOi memories..... haiz...... holding on is da key n da most important ting to da tym between now till april...... i will keep trying..... i will not gif up until i will get to bE wif u..... i promise i m gonna wait..... although i don keep mOi promises, well jus for ya info..... i hv kept one promise frm last yr till now...... it is i hv promised myself to lurve her no matter wat da obstacles n differences are, lurving her as long i m still breathing............ LurVe U...

2005-03-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

tis is mOi life..... i tink mOi record of being single will nvr ever bE broken..... maybe i will stay single for life.... haix.... i kena rejected by her.... n u noe wat.... she told mE tat FACE TO FACE.... she sOo daring sia..... but to mE, telling face to face is more "teruk".... haiz.... 3 tyms in a row..... first by SJ, den ChEr, n now by WS.... haiz.... she told mE she haid no feelings for mE n prefer mE to be her god bro den stead..... haiz... tats life den....
i tink mOi flirting is da cause of tis shit..... ppl might tink i onli flirt wif dem so therefore kena rejected.... i don noe..... haiz haiz haiz.... i cant find anyone hu i truly luv n will gain back da luv..... those kind of luv is hard to find, but in da past there was tis one gal..... eh don tink of da past liaoz.... haiz..... gonna stay single for a while..... wonder when i will get to gif mOi luv n concern tO sumone... who..... mOi nxt target... i don noe.... for da first tym in mOi life, i don hv anyone in mind ryte now.... onli mOi studies n learning to play guitar r important to mE now.... haiz..... veri stress out now.... totally no mood.... envy all those who has stead.... especially those new couples n long-lasting-unbreakable couples.... haiz........................ n i heard frm mOi best fren tat he mention a guy, n he said tat guy is mOi veri gud fren..... ouch... another stab in da heart..... da gud fren of mOi is a drummer...... but no hard feelings bro...... haiz........ tis is LiFe.... da life of MuhammaD SyamiM BiN NormaN.........................................................................................

2005-02-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

yoyo... haiz.... i bloody bored.... mE totally slacking nowadayz.... really hope i will change myself for da better.... got sOo much stress.... mR.neo gonna scold mE for not mOi duties, plus all da other chairman..... AHHHH...!!!! fuck up la..... veri stressful lei..... maybe weifeng was ryte..... he was shock to find a sec 3 guy becoming head of chairman..... maybe i m not ready to take up such a big task.... but i must ask myself.... wat abt azu, hidaya n yanling..... dey r hving their 'O's tis yr n dey still hv to do student council stuff.... if dey can cope n manage their tym, i can too..... gonna start hving better responsibilities..... haiz.....
haiz.... i noe i m under a lot of stress..... but mE hate being single.... tis is da longest time i hv been single..... a new record...... abt 35 dayz of being single..... hahaz..... i wan sumone to gif mOi luv n care to... i wan sumone to luv n be lurved back..... i hv tis gal in mind..... i super close to her, even closer than shima or cheryl neo...... she is da onli one hu noes my bad habit,which i m successfully kicking out, n she still stays close to mE..... but i hope da bad habit i told her is not gonna affect da ans tat i m waiting for frm her.... yupz i asked her..... now i m waiting for her ans.... but i hope i wont bE fool again.... lyk mE waiting for SJ...... but tat was last time.... btw mE n SJ r on gud terms..... sOo nOo more cold stare frm each other, onli a smile n a "hi"..... anyway back to HeR...... will i bE unsuccessful again..... m i jus flirting or showing real luv feelings..... will i bE able to pick myself up n move on if it fails..... m i jus playing wif gals..... wat m i..?!? AAHHHH....!!!! haiz.... m i despo.... tink i m all of da above..... maybe not.... but to sum ppl, i m all of da above..... haix...........

2005-02-22T19:53:00.000+08:00

yoyo wassup.... today i very sad.... sobx.... anyway be4 i talk abt mOi depression, lets rewind to yesterday's invetiture n dinner....
yesterday's invest was great.... wif little rehersal, we did pretty well..... impressed da teachers, students n ex-students, especially cedric.... hahaz..... everybody remembered wat dey r suppose to do.... phew... thank god..... den at the end of da invest, we all sang "i dream".... mE n kenneth was lyk singing our hearts out..... plus to make our lungs to explode tOo was tat both of us shouted da yuying cheer at da top of our voices...... den got a little sore throat.... haix.... sadded.... den mE stayed in skool until 6plus.... met up wif everybody, den we made a move to taka to makan at seoul garden..... i ate lyk hell..... mE was sOo bloated after tat.... oh ya.... we made one drink tat contain, ahem, sprite, ice-cream(vanilla, chocolate, durian, strawberry), eggshell, noodles, raw meat, burned meat n more disgusting stuff..... weng tat drank sum n said was ok..... but wat was funi was when shima drank it..... nth funi abt her drinking it but she did not noe wat was inside...... after she drank a few gulps, newman reveal da ingredients..... yall shld look at shima's face.... sOo pale..... she rushed out to vomit in da dustbin.... -bleahx-.... hahaz.... den after da dinner, sum of dem went off to drink while others, including mE, went home..... sOo bloody tired..... once i reached home, i took a shower n went straight to bed..... i slept lyk nobody's business..... hahaz......
now for more serious stuff.... hahaz..... today i found out frm sumone tat da gal i was eyeing accepted tat guy..... but one funni ting..... no offence but she n tat guy don look lyk a matching..... one is gud, nice.... the other is chaotic, ah beng type..... hahaz..... but u nvr noe dey turn out well..... hey, lyk i promised, i will support her no matter wat.... sOo gud luck wif him..... hehez.... now to those smart-asses out dere..... if yall r guessing tis--->"syamim surely has a new target ryte now".... well u r ryte.... hahaz..... i flirt ryte..... hahax.... tats mE..... mOi new target was da one hu sat beside mE outside da hall tis morning..... i was in between 2 gals..... da gal i m eyeing now was on mOi right, sec 2...... sOo for those hu saw mE tis morning, den yall noe ledi... hahax.... gud luck guessing....
wah i rite sOo much sia.... hahax..... anyway mOi hands cramp ledi..... kidding..... hahaz.... i wanna play game liao..... mR.PaiN aka FlirTaOuS PraWn signing off..... peace out.....

2005-02-18T17:24:00.000+08:00

yo wassup.... i m back.... feeling better now.... no more depress liao.... hahaz.... got mOi eyes on tis sec 2 gal.... sum ppl alredi noe hu, especially her gud frens.... can i get tO bE wif her.... or will i fail in luv again..... hmmmm..... fate will decide..... anyway todae a pair broke up..... cheer up la sis..... dey r other guys for u..... haiz..... she cried during her cca.... cheer up la..... anyway.....back to hEr.... lolz..... i start to lyking heR after she broke up wif "crow"...... hahaz..... if yall noe hu is tat "crow", den yall surely noe hu is hEr..... hehez.....

today i got mOi councillor badge.... looks great on mE..... hahaz..... but mE not happy wif da chairman, especially da da commitee..... yall r not doing ur job..... yall r giving mE da bo-chap attitude..... being a chairman means yall must hv resposibilities..... well i don see anyone of yall hving tat.... yall r not reporting for attire checking.... yall r not doing ur class checking after skool...... yall r making da chairman department lose face...... haix..... sOo yall better buck up.... if not, well yall will jus bE severely dealt wif......

anyway tats all..... sry for da harshness..... haiz..... tis is mR.PaiN siging oFf.... LuV u.....

2005-02-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

valentine's day ended in a bad way for mE.... i hate it.... i feel sOo heartbroken..... she rejected mE..... but i can take in rejection..... but i m sOo broken up when i heard other stuff..... her ans to mE will bE a no, alwayz..... i must hv been a fool to wait for her..... she said no, but i decided to wait..... but i thought da no will change into a yes..... but it didnt...... she cant forget abt tat guy..... its exactly da same as mE cant forget abt u..... i regretted giving da bracelet to her.... felt lyk taking it back.... but i remember saying to myself that if she does not accept mE, den da bracelet is a frenship gift.... haiz... i hate it.... after being nice to her n all tat, i got a broken heart.... u shld hv told mE earlier tat ur ans will bE a no, but instead u left mE waiting for da ans lyk a fool.... i m totally forgetting u..... u r fucking out of mOi life..... i m beginning to hate her... but why must i..... its not her fault..... but will i ever talk to her, even a "hi"..... today at skool, i try to avoid heR.... try to not talk to hEr.... tink she called out to mE.... but i did not respond i tink..... haiz..... can we bE frenz again..... i tink we cant.... its hard to picture it..... haiz.....

anyway, mE gonna go after other gals liaoz..... da word FLIRT n its meanings r back in mOi dictionary...... hahaz..... got mOi eyes on tis sec 2 gal..... tink she know i lyk her..... hmmm..... anyway i super close to her tis yr...... hahaz.... got to noe her through carrie..... yall guess la..... but *ahem* got another gal on mOi list..... hahaz.... got a few noe ledi..... was in mOi list be4.... ask zhao huang if u wanna noe... he went through da whole dnt classmates to ask hu went to da class tat da gal is in it...... in the end, he guessed correctly..... hahaz..... if u understand wat i m saying den u r a genius..... if u don, den u r an arsehole..... hahaz.... jkjk......

yo tink tats all..... hope everybody had a great valentine's day...... i noe i didnt had a great one..... anyway tis is FlirTaOuS PraWn signing off..... Peace OuT....

2005-02-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

wassup pEEps.... wooHoo.... valentine's day is jus days away..... cant wait cant wait..... lac la syamim.... hehez.... but maybe it wont go da way i picture it.... maybe it will still bE da same.... still must wait until april.... but hey, tat is not a problem to mE..... i can wait.... i hv been holding on..... i hv kicked mOi habits of flirting..... although i jus hang around wif a lot of gals...... hehez...... bought a rose frm da student council..... $2 for a rose..!!! wat a rip off..... hahaz.... kidding kidding.... wonder how da rose will look like wif da gift..... hmmm..... but sum ppl r complaining abt being alone during valentine's day..... especially tat PRINCESS..!!! hahaz...... but i found out smth today but happen quite a while ago.... i m sOo outdated...... lolz......

sOo bloody bored now..... haiz..... slacking lyk hell tis few days..... kena scolded by chem cher, miss lim...... den she told mE n da other four guys(disruptive human beings... hehez...) tat we don hv to cum for da chemistry enrichment..... lolz..... veri bitchy lei...... hahaz..... she has jumped frm 7th to 5th on mOi " ppl hu i hate" list..... lolz..... cool ryte.... hahaz..... lame man......

anyway tats all folks..... today i tink i wrote quite long..... hahaz..... tis is mR.PaiN signing oFf..... peace out...... LuV u SJ.... pLz bE mInE....

2005-02-09T13:36:00.000+08:00

wassup PpL....Happy Chinese New Year to All..!!! Have a great Holiday guys.... two days no skool man.... can slack at home.... hahaz...... yo yesterday watched movie wif hidaya n bro..... her bro was in da same religious skool wif mE last time..... tats why he looked familiar..... hahaz.... anyway we watched ConstantinE...... damn awesome man..... its half scary n half funny..... keanu reeves scolded a lot of vulgarities, which was damn funny...... he pointed his middle finger to da devil while he was going to heaven..... but in the end he still stays on earth..... da veri last part of da show was da best...... n da graphics r bloody beautiful.... ok tats all i will tell.... go n watch da movie urself.... hehe..... anyway i m now quite sad coz SJ went back to malaysia to celebrate CNY wif her family dere...... i m missing her lyk mad..... cant sms her...... -sobx-.... hope SJ will enjoy her stay dere n take care of herself...... hv a safe return...... n valentine's day is jus 5 days away..... cant wait..... anyway tats all folks..... hv a great holiday n enjoy ur celebrations..... tis is Mr.PaiN signing off..... peace out..!!

2005-02-05T21:03:00.000+08:00

wassup PpL..... yoyo.... today's investiture rehersal went well..... instead of ending it at 5pm, we did sOo well tat we went home at 3 plus...... hahaz...... it was sOo well done..... i congratulate da leaders..... bloody well done.... i salute u.... hehez.... enuf crap ledi..... anyway ShE did not went for da rehersal coz she jus finish camp n prefers to slp at home to going to da rehersal..... hehez.... wish i could sEe HeR now..... miz her.... da weekends seem lyk a week..... haiz..... i hv swore to sum ppl tat i wont go for other gals..... if i do, i owe them 10 bucks each..... i tink i can do it.... coz ShE is mOi onli one ryte now.... no one else.....
yoyo.....onli 9 more days till Valentine'S DaY..... cant wait for tat day..... i really cant wait.... it will be a special day for a lot of ppl, especially mE...... why cant i fast forward to 13 feb at nite..... sOo by the time i slp n wake up, its 14 feb..... lolz..... dream on syamim..... hahaz..... tats all folks...... LuV u SJ.......

2005-02-04T21:00:00.000+08:00

wassup..... i bloody tired...... especially my hands..... today is our skool's band camp n BanD ExChangE wif other skools...... mE was da camera-man..... hahaz..... took sOo many pictures...... but when i was not taking pictures, mOi eyes were set on HeR....... nowadays i get more n more closer to her..... she tOo..... hmmm..... anyway...... da four skools played their piece, including oUr skool.... the other skools played quite well...... our skool did well tOo..... but a lot complain tat we(our skool band PpL) did not play well...... most of them depress lyk hell.... even miss loh.... i sit beside her during our skool's piece n she keep "haiz haiz haiz"...... hahaz..... cheer up la guys..... especially HeR..... cheer up..... practice makes perfect wat...... anyway tomolo must go to investiture rehersal..... haiz.... sian lei...... anyway tats all, i tink..... tO HeR, hv a really gud rest n enjoy da camp..... i LuV u......

2005-02-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

yoyo..... wassup PpL..... mr pain in da house.... hahaz.... wah.... got sOo many tests coming n i nvr even study..... haiz..... gonna drop tis yr.... haiz..... i hv become worse..... in attitude n character..... i hv started it again....... not flirting ah..... hahaz...... but as long it doesnt spread to PpL, especially HeR, den its safe..... must try n stop..... practically everyday i hv been doing it..... haiz.... anyway todae john super down..... coz arsenal lost 4-2 to MANCHESTER UNITED..... lolz...... den to make tings worse..... i mocked him coz of tat match..... but sry ah bro..... but it did not get any better..... after skool was john's soccer matches..... his team lost da semi finals..... got fourth instead...... he was really not in a gud mood..... haiz..... cheer up la bro...... anyway tats all..... nth much to write.... haiz..... still got a lot of tings to do..... peace out peeps..... tis is mr pain signing off...... LuV u......

2005-01-31T20:50:00.000+08:00

wassup PpL..... bloody tired..... today lost in da soccer competition coz of da last match... haiz.... but we played well..... we, DeMoNiX 7, will bE back.... hahaz..... anyway i cant wait for 14 february, ValentineS DaY..... hehez..... i got no stead but sOo...... i jus cant wait for tat day..... gonna gif smth to sumone special...... n tat special sumone is sumone whom i miz alwayz..... kkz.... whenever i stead wif another gal, i cant gif her all da luv coz i still luv HeR..... tats why i m a flirt.... got stead then break...... coz i cant stand it..... whenever i see her, da memories come back...... i cant forget abt her...... but tats a gud ting..... hmmm..... can i wait till april..... she alredi said no but i can wait till april for da ans..... hmmm..... n i promise carrie i will kick out mOi habits of flirting n........ cant tell u wats the other one..... hehez..... anyway if tat sumone special is reading tis, then i will say tis..... i LuV u.... i StiLL LuV u.... i WannA bE wiF u..... i WannA enjoy da experience we had again..... i miZ u.....

2005-01-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeee....!!!!! wassup ppl..... long time nvr blog huhz..... hehez..... bloody lazy..... anyway i m single again..... lolz..... flirtaous prawn...... hehez..... da reason i broke up wif her is coz she told mE she doenst wanna be serious in da relationship n she also told sum ppl she doesnt lyk mE..... so wats da point being wif her..... waste mOi bloody time...... anyway, got a new computer game, LorD oF ThE RiNgS...... hehez..... damn power man...... sOo fun...... anyway if yall r wondering hu is mOi next target, well den ask mE personally..... hahaz......but u noe wat..... i cant forget HeR....... whenever i see her, it makes mE think n wonder wat i do wrong when i was wif her...... hmmmm..... tink i m gonna wait till april...... if i cant, den *ahem* i will go for another gal..... hahaz..... i noe i noe..... i si bei flirt...... but i apologise to gals i hurt coz of mOi flirty attitude....... or smth lyk tat..... haiz...... anyway mE wanna watch american idol..... sOo..... Byeeeeee.....!!!!

2005-01-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeee....!!!! i m trying to forget her..... trying to get her out of mOi mind..... she told mE tat there are other gals out there for mE...... n i hv alredi set mOi mind on another gal..... i bloody flirt lei..... haiz...... but i m trying to take tings slow an easy now...... wah tat bloody old faggot giving mE super much stress lei..... putting a lot of pressure on mE...... idiot faggot..... haiz.... n tat form teacher of mine, Mrs "William Hung" Kok........ gif sOo much tings to mE n leave da vice-chair n other exco members empty handed...... stupid teacher..... haiz..... but must start slowly now..... take tings easy.... anyway mE gtg..... wanna play game..... hehez..... Byeeeeeeee......!!!

2005-01-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeee....!!!! haiz..... my maths fail..... i thought onli 45 days more to april but actually its 75 days more..... coz i nvr add march...... haiz..... stupid mE...... hehex...... anyway, SJ, can u gif mE the answer at an earliar date..... i really don noe if i can wait tat long..... i swear to mOiself i will try to wait but not promise u i can hold on...... sOo all i m asking is can u gif mE da ans asap..... maybe in february or march..... but hey, i m not pestering or disturb u wif tis...... but i will really wont get in ur way..... i promise.....

2005-01-17T19:59:00.000+08:00

hieeeeeee.....!!!!! wassup guyz..... *knocking head on table*...... did i made da ryte decision.... hmmm...... can i wait for da answer....... will i be able to hold on...... hmmmm....... i will be waiting......

2005-01-15T15:23:00.000+08:00

haiz..... once again feelings got in mOi way again..... mE jus finish watching tv..... watched mtv.... den da soundtrack for the cinderella's story came on..... den da memories came back to me...... haiz..... i noe not all of u noe hu or wat i m talking abt..... but i jus miz those dayz...... i watched tat movie wif happiness n depression..... i lost mOi wallet on tat day but i still enjoyed da outing coz...... haiz...... why..... i still dunno why u wanted to be alone...... why did u make tat decision...... i still cant get over it..... so many tings to handle now......haiz..... but its not ur fault or anyone's fault..... its mine..... haiz...... sum memories cant be forgotten n it will haunt u foreva...... tis is one of dem..... why.... why cant i get over it....... damn it..... i need sumone to talk too.... but hu..... hu....!!!! ARGHHH...!!!!

2005-01-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeee....!!! so bloody tired..... yesterday got ushering...... at nite lei..... da event was meet-da-parents session for sec 4 n 5 class...... i came a little late but nvm la..... mOi duty was at da hall..... help gif out drinks..... sOo fun.... hahaz.... den sit outside hall,at da registration table..... talk wif wai mun abt tons of stuff..... especially relationship stuff...... i make myself pai seh when i said smth abt sumone who was jus beside me...... hahaz..... den went home wif wai mun...... walk n talk all da way to da bus stop...... den her bus came..... wif sumone special inside..... not mOi special sumone ah, its hers...... i pester her 2 take tat bus den she take lorz..... hahaz...... den went home n makan n slp...... hahaz..... mE cant wait for da soccer thingy...... mOi team all sec ones..... mE wanna try out smth new..... hahaz.... btw, I WILL NOT GIF UP SOCCER....... lol..... find out difficult to gif it up...... sOo jus continue playing la...... n my jaw now is better but still hurts a little..... anyway i gtg..... sOo..... Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........!!!!!!!

2005-01-15T13:39:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeee.....!!!! i m back guyz..... haiz..... i got so many tings to handle ryte now..... i got head of chairman stuff, class chairman stuff, tuition hw n skool hw...... walau wei...... now i noe how hidaya, yanling n azulina feel...... so pressurizing n stressful...... n mrs kok, can u gif sum of da jobs to da vice-chairman...... u throw everyting at mE..... haiz...... hope i can live n survive...... must breathe..... haiz.......

2005-01-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeee.....!!!!!!! my jaw still hurts.... hope it gets better.... anyway.... haiz.... todae veri sian lei..... got tis problem la den another pop up..... haiz...... but WAIT...!!!!!!! be4 all tis, i got smth to tell all of u.... I M HEAD OF CHAIRMANS..... OF ALL CHAIRMANS....!!!! HAHAX..... WOOHOO...!!! okok.... enuf crap ledi..... anyway todae mE found out smth abt cheryl tat really threw me off frm shima's prob..... haiz..... both of da gals went to talk n tried to settle da problem..... i dunno wats da outcome kkz ppl..... but jus now, i called cheryl n talked to her...... once again i m da one tat is solving relationship problems..... but maybe tats mOi speciality.... hahaz..... kkz.... den gave her mOi speech but hvnt finish sOo continue tomolo coz she was having tuition at tat time..... haiz..... i help settle relationship problems but i myself need help...... i need help..... haiz...... anyway to all da ppl hu noticed n cared n ask me if i was alrite, abt mOi jaw, well thx guyz for caring...... anyway mE gtg.... Byeeeeeee.......!!!!!!!!

2005-01-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

haix..... i tink i very si bei suai..... kena punched at moi jaw todae..... nw it hurts lyk mad..... i cant even eat solid food..... haiz...... i m totally giving up soccer...... fuck la..... but today i quite happy..... found out smth frm cheryl.... but got da bad news frm her too la..... but me must keep moi hopes n spirit up..... but one ting for sure...... soccer is going to be gone in moi life...... sobx.....

2005-01-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeee....!!!! thx guyz..... thx for looking out for mE...... i m better now but still a little depress..... yesterday nite mOi dad gave mE a talk abt mOi attitude...... walau wei...... if yall want mE to change mOi attitude, den yall hv to change da way yall talk to mE...... my dad talk to me lyk finding trouble..... haiz..... i really feel lyk bashing sumone up, breaking tings apart, i really need to shout at sumone face, i really need HeR....... haiz..... but mE must stay happy n appreciate mOi life now or else i will suffer in da future..... tink i will jus be quiet now n jus sit one corner..... haiz..... i want mOi life, mOi OWN life......

2005-01-08T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeeeeeee......!!! i m totally depressed ryte now.... sobz.... itz not because of her...... its jus mE..... i went to download da song shima's band gonna play, ZombiE by the CranBerrieS...... da singer's voice exactly same lyk shima's..... hahaz..... but tats nt da point...... da ting is almost everyone i noe is cool in one way...... dey used to be a normal person wif an average live but now sum became cool..... shan, izwan, jordan, zhao huang n shima r in a band..... shan did not noe how to play a guitar but now he does.....ridzwan n ridzuan now noes how to play guitar..... john is veri good at da drums n has his own band....... whenever i see anyone of dem talking about or playing their instruments, i will try to jus ignore or pretend to listen..... i hate it..... abt other stuff, jeremy has his own dj show...... nadie can dance modern dance...... sum ppl can sing super well..... i feel lyk i m alone in tis world..... i feel lyk no one is suffering wif mE....... i feel no one has da same problem as mE..... onli mE...... i blame myself...... but sum is to mOi parents...... dey practically wont let me do anyting....... dey tink itz bad for mE...... tats bullshit..... yall cant change mE...... i still want mOi freedom...... i m in sec 3 dammit...... where is mOi fucking freedom...... now mOi fone is confiscated for one mth...... will mOi life get any worse...... i cant stand it...... i can rap but not tat good..... maybe mOi talent of rapping n deejaying is not noticed yet...... or maybe i don hv any talents..... i can just cause trouble n make troubles more worse........ i feel lyk crying now...... tis is not mE now...... wat has happened to mE...... fuck mOi life..... fuck da world..... feel lyk jumping off da building...... but no... i cant end mOi life now...... dere is still so much to do...... but i need space for now...... i need to be alone for a while...... i need to breathe...... i must be more brave n show ppl i hv talents...... *sobx*

2005-01-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........!!!!!!!! mE back frm camp..... sec one orientation camp.... although it was quite boring but alse memoriable..... i don wanna talk abt da camp coz a lot of stuff happened.... anyway todae was cca dae.... i joined a new cca..... malay cultural club..... hehez..... anyway todae was fun.... lol..... anyway mE gonna wait for her..... gonna wait all da way till i get to be wif her...... wah....!! mE really feel sumting different abt her.... i dunno why..... haiz...... mE luv her sOo much...... but sum ppl say we cant last long coz of mOi past relationships...... nonsense..!!! u cant judge mE lyk tat...... n nth last long..... haiz...... but no matter watz da obstacles n barriers r in front of me, she will still be in mOi heart...... i LurvE u....... hope we can be together...... anyway..... i mean sOo..... Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee............!!!!!!!!

2005-01-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........!!!!!!!! i cant take it anymore...... i m sOo freakin..... wait i m not angry at da first place ah.... mE jus really wanna be wif her..... haiz...... every minute i m suffering..... i luv her sOo much.... plz plz be mine..... but i m feeling quite shy abt it.... why.... i hv so much experience n now i feel weak..... maybe there is smth different abt her tat made mE feel different.... hmmm.... anyway mE wanna pack bag for camp.... sOo byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........

2005-01-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeeee....!!! wassup.... todae quite sian lei.... mE first time insulted da head of councillors board.... i m really sori..... mE insulted dem coz of a stupid matter la..... hehez..... but i apologise ledi.... sori ah..... anyway cant wait for da sec one orientation camp...... hahaz..... n i found out..... TIS YEAR GOT STREET SOCCER AS CCA....!!! WOOHOO....!!!! lolz..... i siao ledi..... den after skool, mE played soccer n den went makan at mac wif newman n mamaShimAshi.... hahaz..... wah... she keep begging me to help her in her problems again..... i can help but tis time, i cant coz its lyk to big for me to handle..... but i will try mOi best n help u..... newman will help too...... n i will hint to tat guy hu is in shima's mind now...... she still wants u man..... haiz..... anyway i tink i play maplestory ledi la..... sOo..... Byeeeeeeeeeeee.........!!!!!!

2005-01-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......!!!!!!! todae sux to the core..... first day of skool lei.... u noe wat sux da most.... da sec ones..... dey were damn bloody arseholes..... especially khairul of 1F..... fell lyk killing him..... disrespectful to da seniors..... haiz.... but todae i m quite happy..... coz i m STILL CHAIRMAN.....!!!!! WOOHOO....!!!! i luv it man.....!!!! hehex..... anyway i alredi noe it will end up lyk a mess for da whole dae, coz in da morning it was chaos..... haiz..... den bla bla bla..... den during playing games wif da sec ones, dey were nt even listening to us..... hopeless sec ones..... pure hopeless..... but first dae wat..... but mE must really control... if not dey will suffer man.... anyway, me quite happy again coz saw her.... miz her..... but i did not talk to her tat often.... coz i feel guilty or shy to face her..... haiz..... mE must hv confidence..... anyway sum of us got nickname for her n her group, which is bernice n cheryl..... charlie angels..... hahaz.... lame..... anyway to her, i really luv u...... i wanna be wif u.... sobz..... oh ya..... one more ting.... erm..... don say la..... coz maybe tat person might read moi blog..... its abt chairman stuff...... but i will say tis..... WHY MUST JULIE BECOME VICE-CHAIR OF 3D..... DA CLASS WILL GO KA-POOT...!!!!! HARD TO DISCIPLINE LEI THEIR CLASS.... haiz.... but nvm la..... not moi prob.... i got moi OWN class to take care of..... hahaz..... n to nadie, thx for trusting me n being "my fairy princess".... lol..... n i will continue to treasure tis frenship of ours.... hehez..... anyway me gtg..... LuV u..... n sOo.... Byeeeeeeeeeeee.......!!!!!!

HappY NeW YeaR...

2005-01-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeee....!! mE quite relieved..... why.... coz i found out nadie's fine.... she sms mE n i was damn hapi.... hahaz.... finally i can smile n breathe..... now mOi new yr is great.... maybe tis yr will be different........ maybe tings will go smoothly for me.... hahaz.... u may nvr noe.... anyway mE gtg.... wanna play maplestory.... hehex..... n mE canT wait for skool..... :P Byeeeeeeeeeee...........!!!!!!!

Happy New Year

2005-01-01T09:59:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeeeee.......!!!!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR PpL....!!!!! hahaz.. hope yall enjoyed ur parties n celebrations last nite..... everyone made their resolutions alredi..? hehez.... but to me its a sad new yr.... as i enter da new year, i might lose a fren..... but hey, me must look on da brighter side of tings n look forward to da future, especially skool reopen..... eh me gotta go.... wanna play maple wif vicky liaoz.... hehex.... Byeeeeeeeeeeeee......!!!!!!!!!

worried

2004-12-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

hieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........!!!!! haiz..... everynite i cant slp... why... coz of two tings.... firstly is nadie, hu is da gerl hu is in indo.... everynite i wonder if she is okay.... wonder if she will return to singapore safely n in one piece..... sobx.... haix..... secondly is her..... i say to myself.... will she ever accept me.... or will she even accept me as a fren when i see her again.... haiz.... i tink i hvnt say tis be4..... although u might see me as a mischievous, naughty, bad, funny person but inside i m very emotional..... i hv feelings..... sumone once said i lyk to break ppl's heart.... tats not true.... whenever i break sumone's heart, mine also breaks.... haiz..... tis is me..... emotionally, act-cute, one-of-a-kind syamim..... haiz..... by da way, i m growing shorter coz haiz too much.... haiz.... hehex..... tats all..... Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....!!!!

2004-12-27T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeee......!!! Shit la..... if yall had seen or read da news, an earthquake had caused a terrible tsunami which swept through a lot of south east asian countries.... although singapore is safe, i m worried for a really gud fren in indonesia..... she is spending her holiday there..... hope nth happen to her..... i feel so depress ryte now.... whenever she has a problem, she alwayz come to me.... may god bless her..... haiz..... now i noe wats da feeling lyk to lose a fren..... hope she is alright..... hope she returns to singapore safely..... haix..... fuck la.....

2004-12-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeeeee.....!!! anyway todae quite sad.... -sobx- i tink i did it again.... wat i did.... i tink i started off wrongly again.... shit man..... i tink i offend her a little...... but still must hv faith n hope in myself..... must still hv tat spirit..... haix..... but nvm la..... be frens first la..... super good frens.... hahax.....anyway todae my mum n bro coming back home frm KL..... hope dey had enjoyed themselves..... anyway to her, i still luv u no matter wat u tink of me or wats da obstacles in front of me...... oh ya.... almost 4got.... i wanted to tell yall abt 3 songs tat is quite meaningful to me la..... hehex.... 1st. Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan..... tat song is mostly targeted at teenagers..... da song totally says abt me life, every line, every verse.... hehex.... 2nd. Only One by YellowCard..... of course its abt luv.... its to her coz she is mOi onli one ryte now..... 3rd. Mockingbird by Eminem..... although tat song Eminem sings it is mostly abt his family but i feel lyk i m part of it when i listen to it..... so yall listen to all tis three songs if u hv it or hv da time.... hehex.... enuf crap ledi..... sOo to her, i luv u veri much n to all my family n frens, i m sori...... tats all i tink.... sOo.... Byeeeeeeeeeeeee......!!!!!

Luv Luv Luv....

2004-12-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeee.......!!!! Merry X'MaS to everyone celebrating..... hehex.....anyway todae was fun.... watched kungfu hustle..... hehex.... damn funny..... n i watched it wif moi dad..... reasons why i watch wif him r, 1st i don hv to pay for anyting, 2nd he wanted to watch tat show too n 3rd nobody is at home coz my bro n mum went KL.... anyway after movie went shopping for my bro's birthdae..... hehex.... got him a gameboy advance game...... anyway me wanted a new shoe but cannot find da ryte one..... da ones i lyk has no more stock.... haix...... but nvm la.....anyway i confessed to her..... but dunno whether she will lyk believe me tat i luv her...... hmmmm...... lets wait n see wat happens...... fate will decide...... hahax...... anyway enuf crap ledi...... ppl enjoy ur Xmas partys n stay happy alwayz..... n ppl plz catch da movie kungfu hustle.... yall will regret it if yall miz it.... hehex..... sOo..... Byeeeeeeeeee.......!!!! LuV U.........

LuV

2004-12-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeeeeeeee ppl....... i m in luv again..... luv luv luv..... hahax...... a few ppl noe ledi so yall keep quiet ok...... hehex...... i luv her so much...... but dunno whether she will accept me..... but i must fight for her trust n luv, lyk fighting for chairman post next year(but sure sure i be chairman next year... hahax...)...... anyway to her, plz be mine..... *ps gif u a hint.... if yall went to da SL camp, da gal was frm moi group..... tats all.... Byeeeeeeeee..........

BacK FroM CamP N StuFF.....

2004-12-23T18:34:00.000+08:00

Hieeeeee....!!!!! i hv a new n improve trademark.... no more yo yo wassup... now is time to release a new syamim.... i m now act-cute-mrpain.... hahax.... so whenever u see me, be prepared to wear sunglasses coz my smile will blind u.... hahax..... anyway i jus came back frm ushering..... but lets rewind to da camp on monday.....
1st day..... reported to skool quite late.... hehex.... i got into group E but combine wif group C coz little ppl..... then we call ourselves CUCKOO..... mr lawrence suggest tat name.... hahax..... then our cheer also funny..... anyway bla bla bla.... skip to at nite..... nite activities..... da game was abt a murder.... we had to find clues to solve da murder.... damn fun n confusing.... hahax.... in da end we got all wrong except for da weapon, a hammer..... den wash up n slp.....
2nd day..... skip to da afternoon...... got games...... got 5 stations.... 1st station, played water bomb against another group..... it was a draw..... den 2nd station, all of us were tied together at da leg... den we had to move to a plate of flour to find sweets.... we r against another group.... although we reached da flour first, we lost coz cant find da sweets..... but da fun part was, both da groups poured da flour onto da game-in-charge, Jane n Cheryl...... hahax.... 3rd station..... played captain ball water bomb.....onli got one water bomb... against da same group...... den we won... score was 2-0..... hahax..... den 4th station.... got more wetter..... objective was to take water from a pail n fill it into a bottle using spoons, cup, t-shirts n anyting on us..... against same group.... i used my jersey, which was waterproof..... so dey poured water into my jersey n i carried it n pour it into da bottle..... we won of course..... last station was to transfer cereal using toothpicks.... but can onli use da toothpicks by mouth..... so after a few min, we got 2 cereals.... hahax.... but we won against another group...... den skip all da way to at nite..... we acted out our story..... so funny but not well planned...... but it was fine..... den after talent nite was another activity.... nite walk..... da whole camp was blindfolded n da seniors lead us around da skool.... den dey break everybody up..... i was dragged into a toilet wif sumone(i noe tat person but dunno da name, sori)..... we sit dere lyk idiots but actually was suppose to move n find our way out..... den after 20min i found my way back to da basement..... hahax.....den it was 12am ledi.... so after tat was washing up den ZzZzZzZ.....
3rd day..... after breakfast was area cleaning..... our group was da easiest.... clean da girls bunk.... but got nth to do.... hahax..... so less than 5 min we finish up den went to basement..... den dey warded da prizes...... best male camper was matthew while best female was my group leader karmen...... best leader was duan jin.... but da best group was our group.... we got da highest points...... hahax..... so happy.... den after camp, me hang out wif m.e.s gang n makan KFC..... after tat go home....
todae went to skool for ushering.... it was sec one registration..... my original group, E, had to usher ppl frm front gate to canteen..... damn fun lei..... but not a lot of chio-bu..... hahax...... den after tat hang out wif m.E.s gang again..... me, nat n mervin makan mac while others makan BK, but we all ate together at BK..... den went to compass to meet carrie.... she gave me christmas present n for my bro too.... it was a little mug.... super small.... hahax.... tankz sis.... den went home n now rushing to do tuition homework but dunno how to do..... so confusing..... hahax..... anyway i gtg..... peace o..... oops..... wrong..... now its..... Byeeeeeee.....!!!!

Problems....

2004-12-16T12:15:00.000+08:00

wassup ppl..... there is so many problems now..... a lot of ppl r suffering one or two problems..... especially relationship problems.... i m one of those victims..... once again mr.pain is causing pain n is in luv problems again..... maybe i m not the type of person hu needs luv..... maybe i m not good enuf for bgr..... i m suffering lyk cedric..... n yo cedric, i m sorry abt two days ago..... forgif me man..... anyway, i must kick tis habit..... wat habit..... habit of luv...... why must i always fall victim to luv.....i must stop tis shit..... no more luv after tis..... its frens n studies now..... but... i m still confuse..... i miss being............ but can i do it...... can i survive it...... why..... tis is so complicated...... FuCk My LiFe..!!!

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